Tonight I lingered a little longer....
Sometimes I turn the TV on during the day, while I'm folding laundry or picking up toys or cleaning the kitchen, just to help pass the time....and today I instantly found myself glued to the TV, forgetting about all that needed done. As I heard about the mass shooting in Connecticut, at an elementary school, with 20 children dead , my stomach turned to knots and tears streamed down my face. I don't understand how things like this happen.....how someone can be so mentally sick that they can get to the point of performing such horrific acts of violence.
While I walked the aisles of Wal-mart today looking for a silly surprise for the kids for tomorrow, the tears fell. While I met up with Brett for lunch and shared the news with him, the tears welled up in my eyes. Everywhere I went...tears. I just could not hold them back. And tonight, while I tucked my children in bed...I lingered a little longer with each one...soaking in every second of it....stroking their hair...and brushing the back of my fingers across their cheeks....and thought about those 18 mothers who don't have a child to tuck in bed tonight...and the tears keep falling. My heart is full of prayers for those mothers tonight, who I know would give anything in this world to just have the chance to tuck their babies in....just one last time.
With Christmas songs running through my head, I just wanted to end with this:
And in despair I bowed my head:
"There is no peace on earth," I said,
"For hate is strong and mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good will to men."
Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead, nor doth he sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,
With peace on earth, good will to men."
With Christmas songs running through my head, I just wanted to end with this:
And in despair I bowed my head:
"There is no peace on earth," I said,
"For hate is strong and mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good will to men."
Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead, nor doth he sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,
With peace on earth, good will to men."
3 comments:
Me too Holly. Me too. A friend alerted me to what was happening and I was stuck in front of the tv until the kids were out. Just crying and crying. My little boy was a Kindergartner last year. I helped in class a lot. I related too much to what that class would have looked like before and I couldn't wrap my head around the "after". All those sweet children. I held my kids tonight thinking what you were, about all those moms who were never going to hold their children again. My heart breaks...
perfect words Holly - it is just heart breaking. Praying for all the families.
Just catching up on your blog. Thank you for this post. I loved it. Funny thing is that I remembered that same song coming to mind as I looked upon my children's sleeping faces after the shooting. It's also my mom's favorite christmas song. What a beautiful post. Thank you. Belated Merry Christmas! I hope the new year brings many wonderful things for you and your beautiful family.
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