Sorry guys! I've been missing in action lately. Life has been crazy....and I've been sick...and not feeling like myself. Um, no. I'm not pregnant. Whew!
Ever have those times in life where decisions weigh heavy on your mind, when you take others problems on yourself, and let yourself feel their sorrows? Let them in so far that your body cannot handle it? Some dear people in my life are dealing with things that just make me sad. But somehow I've got to let them handle their own issues and just continue to love and strengthen them without letting it affect me physically. I did make it back to the gym this morning and that felt really good.
So, there's been THAT....and then I've been researching homeschooling. Why? Well, now. THAT is a great question. I'm not sure that I really even know the answer to that. Other than, my kids seem to be growing at the speed of lightning. My time with them seems to be less and less and each day. And I'm grasping, trying to hold on to each little dear moment with them. I find myself lingering longer after I've tucked them in bed, spending more time tickling and laughing. And it's great and I love it! I really don't like sending them away for the majority of the day only to have them come home and rush off again to scouts or music or dance or to play with friends. We have scheduled less in our lives this year and it's still just not cutting it for me. But I question myself. Will I be able to teach these sweet children of mine everything that is necessary for them to gain a good education? Will I turn them into freaky weird homeschooled children? Is this decision best for our family? Every single person that I talk to that homeschools their children LOVES it! Will I love it? Will I be able to let my house get dirty and be able to focus on them? What I do know is that I'd LOVE the extra time with them! I know that it would make their relationships even stronger! I know I would feel more fulfilled as a mother. Oh my goodness...open up those floodgates. I'm such a crier! My Bear is 10 and before I know it he'll be moving out on his own. I can't handle that thought. I feel like there is not time enough in the day to teach them the things that I want them to know. I want them to know so many things!
So, that's where I've been. Sick in bed. Or researching homeschool.
I guess that I DID go to Utah last weekend to go to Swiss Days with my SIL, Kendra, super good friend, Devry, my sisters, Tressa and Mindy, and my aunt, Letia. Seriously, I haven't laughed that hard in a REALLY, really long time! Kendra and I laughed until we literally could not talk and tears rolled down our cheeks as we drove down the road in our cherry red "PT Cruiser" (long, but funny story). We all shopped together at Swiss Days, ate delicious food, stayed up WAY TOO LATE, and got up way too early. Kendra and I cried as we stood together in the brides room in the Salt Lake City Temple. It was basically perfect!
And I'm heading BACK to Utah tomorrow to teach another Picture Life Workshop! I can't wait to spend time with Amanda and teach these fun, fun ladies all that we can. Yay!
I didn't forget about the pumpkins, though. I'll pick a winner before I head out tomorrow. Put your last entries in before it's over!