So, maybe I'm not the smartest little cookie....
Sometimes I wonder and ask myself, "What in the heck were you thinking? Honestly, Holly. Wow!" Well, I kinda felt like that this last week or so. Who would be smart enough to start homeschooling 3 children AND start a crazy diet (so, so close to being what I weighed when I got married) when her husband was LEAVING THE COUNTRY FOR A WEEK? When I knew I wouldn't just be able to call him whenever I wanted. When I knew he wouldn't be there to rub my feet at night and help me tuck the children in bed. When I knew that I wouldn't sleep. I can't help it. When he's gone, I don't sleep. Here I am raising my hand, well trying to but I'm awfully tired. I know. I'm brilliant! Totally! Yah, I probably didn't think it through the best. I mean, I DID think about it and thought I could pull it off. I guess, I did pull it off. Kind of.
I followed the advice of a few homeschooling mothers that I admire (some I've only known for a few weeks). But ANY mother who homeschools her children and does it well, I admire. How could you not? Anyhow, they suggested spending some time breaking the tradition of "traditional schooling".
So we spent the week going on different field trips (science center, hours at the library, the zoo, a roadtrip to Joseph City - maybe I'll save that for another post, etc). We had fun! We really enjoyed being together, reading books all snuggled up on the couch, talking about things we want to learn about, writing in our journals about General Conference and our field trip to the zoo, etc. We've played so many games and had LOTS of recess and snack time. We've baked yummy treats together (which I can't eat, but they sure make the house smell great), had picnics, and built some amazing creations out of blocks and legos.
But I've been hard on myself. I think I'm pretty good at that! Sometimes The Hubs will tell me that I wouldn't be friends with myself, the way I talk down to myself. At night, when I was completely exhausted, and worried that I wasn't doing enough, and worried about how I felt I was falling short....I'd tell myself that I'd made the wrong decision, that I would never be able to have the energy that I needed to provide an exciting and loving learning environment full of scholarly information and creative projects. It made my week much harder than it should've been!
But now we are off to the airport, to pick The Hubs up - ONE DAY EARLY! He was successful on his deer hunt in Canada and we get to spend the whole day together....which I'm really excited about and so are the children! Maybe we'll go visit Therizinosaur at the museum or see an IMAX movie and go explore some place we've never been before! Yay for our next adventure!